Sweet child of mankind

Oh little child, my dear little child.

Your eyes, bright with hopes and desires
You pick a handful of sand, and looking at it flow out of your hand, mesmerized.
"Is it just me or it's raining diamonds from the sky"

Oh little child, my dear little child.

I close my eyes and can't stop thinking of the look in your eyes.
The world out there is waiting for you,
With its open sewer of crime and vice.

"You are not enough, not good enough, may be a little too ample, or a little too inadequate
A little here, a little there; just a little away from nose but not too much, maybe" (but who cares)

You will not always be right,
What is right anyway, who decides?!
It tears me apart, to think, there would be a time only you would be by your side.

Oh little child, my dear little child.

One day, a boy or a girl (up to you, you decide)
Would convince you with the power of their own conviction
"There is a new or may be a parallel world,
Where holding my hand brings more power to you girl."

Hard to say if you would be power for them, or they would be for you,
The illusion of power brings out the real power, it's true.
The right balance is struck
And Viola! You are the enigma, 'His' perfect work.

Pull one block, the whole thing crashes,
down to remains or may be just ashes.
It hurts like hell, hurts both of you, to be precise,
After all, I taught you better than this, you cannot be selfish, but you decide.

What is right anyway, who decides?!
It would again be only you by your side.

Oh little child, my dear little child.

What did you do, what did I teach you!

At the end, I would stand along with the crowd,
Thee whole world and hypocrisy of my own righteous woman pride,
Judging you, dissecting you, ripping your leg once and then your eye.

What did you do, what did I teach you!

What is right anyway, who decides?!
It would again be only you by your side.

Oh little child,
My dear little child.

It doesnt matter any more

Years back people said things to people to cause misunderstanding between other people. For then it seemed to be an amusement, the all important job to keep the gossip going.

It felt so difficult to survive, being from a different state, not understanding people's motives, being away from home for the first time, being confused about feelings all the time, feeling of being out of place, feeling of being unattractive, unwanted and unimportant.

Then it feels so silly.
Then, that dark phase did not matter.

It may have mattered some day, but the story didn't stop there, I had the courage to rise and try to look into the new day. For me things turned out well. Things only started to look up. I met a friend, I took driving classes, I learnt how not to fall off the scooter while taking a turn, I found solace in cooking, I spent time with family.

Then the darkness hit back, and hit hard. I would not put myself through the pain of putting it in words but can say that the darkness had hit hard. Long hours of staring at the fan all night and endless teras, it never stopped.

Today, it feels silly. But then it was enough to make me stop writing for good.

Life is very precious, and it has a lot in store to surprise you. Do not feel overwhelmed by anything as the darkness waits eagerly to take hold of you again.

After all the writer had the option of ending the story mid sentence, but she put a semi-colon and continued to do the good job. :)

Pure Heroine

Her withering feathers shed flakes of gold

Her broken back implying a fight for  safeguarding her valore

Huge limpid eyes

The fire of anger that never dies

The clenched toes

The lovers or the foes?

Head filled with thoughts of vengeance

Fingers quivering with annoyance

Is she really her pure heroine

Or is she a part of Lorde's stolen lore

There is just so much more, there is just so much more

When she vows she would never look back, oh she would once, to see what it looks like after she burns his world down.

Is she a vengeful vamp or a weak useless force with eyes so damp

Well her heart would also cry, but she would have the vengeance she long desired.

The flamingo effect

This post is not about any biological phenomenon associated with the flamingo- A tall wading bird with mainly pink or scarlet plumage and long legs and neck. It has a heavy bent bill that is held upside down in the water in order to filter-feed on small organisms. This post is however about a human phenomenon which every other person experiences at some point of time in life. Well may be, may be not, it you are too smart you may never have to.

We are talking about the average human being who has a tendency of cutting slack in stuffs whenever it’s not fatal, moves his ass only if it becomes necessary and unavoidable, may wake up late and think of snoozing the alarm a little bit more. They all have the same tendency, doing just enough.

But while you are doing just enough to manage a task, what happens at the end? You may end up reading the document half-heartedly, making the shortest possible presentation with the scarcest data in it, may run just 1/6^th of your targeted distance. We all know, it’s not fatal.

Often there comes a time when we are asked a question by our senior, we surely don’t know the answer, but there is no harm in making a wild guess right, let’s stick to an educated guess over a wild guess. What would that invite you at most? May be a warning which is most likely to keep your mouth shut and stop bluffing. When you get caught and feel completely busted, I call it the Flamingo effect. What makes me name it that when I blurted out the wrong figures and got caught I was just feeling lucky you see.

Déjà-vu.

 It was an event from my school, may be standard 6^th. I was selected in the team of 2 which was supposed to represent my school at a state level quiz competition. It was organised by my father’s office people so the human resources guy was quite impressed by me as I had scored highest in the objective type screening. But what we don’t know here yet is I bluffed my way out, lucky day you see. And there at the quiz, after scoring an easy 20, we sit there to a question which could easily make us the winner by getting us 50 points in one go. And the question, we had to identify the bird in the picture. Now all including my partner in the quiz were looking at me for the answer, after all I had hit the buzzer even before they completed the question. I mumbled the line which I guess I will not forget in my life. Is it the Siberian crane? “For a second there was a deafening silence as the anchor really thought I got that, hitting the buzzer and all.

 “Its the Flamingo, you get a -50 on that”

Easy calculation. 25-50= -25. We stood last.

What do I do! I am a slacker who has often been lucky enough to get the wild guesses correct! I was feeling lucky that day!

Hence, the Flamingo effect.

Now that’s kind of my favorite bird now as i have obsessed about it for all those years now. Yes, now 26, and still can’t get over the gold plated watch they gave to the winners there at the quiz. Marvels of human nature, we are a fabulous species.

If I could go back into time and change anything, I would not be hitting the buzzer, but I completely did and there was no other thing which would have happened at all. So even if you are feeling lucky, the Flamingo effect may still follow you and haunt you for life.

And, we are back :D

JUST THE LITTLE THINGS

As a kid – “Tu mera best friend hai” was no less than being bestowed a Knighthood

When you reach home after being slapped by your teacher for not doing homework and find hot jalebis made by your mom- it is the cure

When after fighting with your friend you say, sorry yaar mistake ho gaya-Even if its not your fault, both of you cry in each others arms

When in class your teacher says- You had the best answer, and it jumps in your stomach

When someone you care ignores you and then all of a sudden books first day first show tickets for just the two of you and says- Tere saath hi movie acchi lagti hai

When no one else notices but that one person does, that you may not be feeling well and need rest- Ja naa, aur kitni baat karni hai tujhe

When a friend goes for a trip and calls, while you brood about balance running out- Arey teri baton se pyaari thodi hi hai roaming

When you slip off the stairs and instead of picking you, first they choose to have a hearty laugh and then say- dekho to marr mura to ni gaya

When its important to discuss an event in an important seminar no matter what- “Shilpa shetty kahan yaar, ab to Deepika Padukone… shhh”

When you haven’t been talking for a while, but make sure your friend made it to lunch because it’s his favourite thing there- “Arey Bunty ko lunch pe le ja, aaj gulab jamun hai na”

Little things you do, just the little things, which can only be felt and not told, they make life wonderful. Happiness cannot be counted, nor measured in terms of wealth.

God has made all the materialistic stuffs which we can see, but emotions and sentiments can only be felt. Its an art, which you learn and the approach is different to every being.

The little things we to to bring smile on the face of someone we care, the enormity of the little gestures we make. It’s fabulous how you make someone feel good by just the least you could do. A lonely elderly person may miss his late wife, few sweet words or just company for 5 minutes may give a smile to him.

Your little sister comes to you and says every bit of things which happened at school- Why not, you are the first friend which she had ever since she came into this world, lend your ears to her- the least you can do

A kid who doesn’t like school becase he doesn’t understand a thing there, a game of hide and seek sets him back to his innocent world where he understands just one thing- Love

A teenage plump girl who is mad at everything because she was made fun of, just say, “”you look pretty today” and there we see the little smile on her face

Our mommy who is tired working whole day, hug her and she forgets what she was brooding about- Her world is all about you, how can she be upset for long

When your girlfriend did not get to talk to you and may be sending cranky texts- Call her and say,“Are you somewhere around my office? Because all the ladies her look like you today… Is it you everywhere or just that you are being missed?” There comes the giggle which sends a backflip in your stomach

It doesn’t take much, not even a little. Take a moment out of your schedule to think about your dear ones. Life is a lonely journey without them, you may not realize but ignoring them may leave you alone in a cold and dark path. Commitment is a requirement but being too commited to your work would ruin the best moments in life. We live moments, and every moment is magic, not because it has to be, but because we all together make the moment magical.

It’s just the little things, just the little things…

ILLEGAL GODS

il·le·gal/iˈlēgəl/

Adjective:	Contrary to or forbidden by law, esp. criminal law: "illegal drugs".
Noun:	An illegal immigrant.

God is one; desireless; colourless; nameless; deathless; He is the Truth, consciousness and bliss; the ultimate destination; all pervasive and cosmic’

Yes, someone was warned this was coming.No, I don’t always revolve around GOD, nor is this post about Theism, Belief or Spirituality.One question which has influenced me in quite an abstract manner is-What has the largest brand loyalty?Now googling, knowing, saying and shouting out the answer on the screen later, you would want to know what answer I have.

”GOD”

 It’s interesting to note, and yes it may seem obvious now, but that had really amazed me when I felt- “I never thought of this!” Everyone believes, almost everyone, that there is a power which rules and controls us all. That may be a hope in sad times, a graceful moment in happier times or a support in tough times. Somewhere you may all have believed in the word God. Do you get a number for the followers?But the logic of this post is, what things in our lives have illegally been ruling and controlling us like Gods? They aren’t supposed to, they are not desirable, but we want it and we need it. Few things which I have seen very closely and would like to talk about. 

1.      SMOKING- Now half of the people who smoke and were reading my post are already gone for another fag right away. Other half would detest me for speaking this. But seriously, its ruling you. Any smoker would, at one point of time try to quit- tortured by the feeling of being controlled. Some would rather be cool with it always and love it- Die hard loyalist they are.

But if I had to support my assertion with facts, 7 billion people are on this planet and 1.3 billion are smokers, the International Union against Tuberculosis and Lung Disease (The Union) and the World Lung Foundation (WLF) told the 38th Union World Conference on Lung Health.Did not change the font because I wish to convey it is copy pasted from a trusted source. Numbers don’t lie.It’s not anti-smoking thing, it’s just something which highlights the gravity of one habit which is a common story in every other household. Is it that bad? Has a fag become God for you? If you wish to quit does your loyalty lynch you to resume? Try and think.Illegal God no. 1 huh? (can’t help but this sarcastic smile on my face is here to stay)

 2.      GOSSIP- If you ask me, yes Gossip is another big brand which everyone follows. Quite abstract and unrelated it is to the previous topic. But everyone has been there, done that.
The moment someone says those random people were gossiping about me- BITCH! You are already doing it right away!!!!!!
My mother said, never talk ill about someone behind him. Well everyones mum must have said this. We all do it ! we all have done that!Point is, is it tough to give up? One never thinks this way, never is our little talk about something a gossip. Rather a healthy gossip is always desirable to keep the Grapevine alive. :DIs gossip your Illegal God no. 2 ? It definitely is for me. 

3.      NAIL BITING – Yes if you are reading it then this part is dedicated to you Akash Kumar singh! Nail biting is almost your God! Jokes apart, try to quit this people! Nails can make your fingers look good and full. And this habit isn’t healthy for your teeth also. No. 3 on my list is Nail Biting. Whether after this someone would kill me, but this is a habit hard to give up. All my support to win this unnoticed addiction. Kudos to those who have already quit! :D

4.      CUSSING- !@#$^^%$%^&**(*&^$#@!
Tough is it? Naaaah! But everyone does that! We are all here to admit we have done this at least once in our life. It’s very much in, it’s important for life.  Every frustrated moment is accompanied by it.


 I felt so I conveyed, this whole thing means a lot. One should never give up to something which is overpowering oneself. When we cannot help doing something, its definitely a part of us, but if wish to stop it, its definitely something which is illegally a part of us. Be the change you want to be in ur life. List at least 5 Illegal Gods of your life once in a while and try to keep a watch. Not tough but yes! You don’t want it in you in any case! Nothing in this world has the right to rule us against our wish. Like its said, All the loyalists believe, God did not send us to be slaves, He has sent us to be the change, we all are sent with a purpose. This purpose is definitely not to succumb to our bad habits.Duh?! Huh….. :P :/ :D

Searching for 'GOD'S' phone number in your contacts?

Did this happen to you ever? After something went grossly wrong in your life you start thinking, "Why me? Why din't you choose something which I could digest and would have liked?"

...and when this feeling takes toll on you.. there comes madness tumbling after, making you do foolish things which would not help you anyways, except for the fact that it makes you feel miserable. 

Now if there is someone who has a question on the credibility of the fact that God exists or not, then sorry, "SPPPAAAARRRREEE MEEE", it would cost you a new post which wouldn't be very catchy by any chance. Lets assume God exists and he has a Cellphone (Why carry a land line when you are the Big Boss, every other bloke has a cellphone!)

Now, if you have a question, and a reason to call him and ask Why me!, then what reply do you expect? He would sit and explain you the dynamics of this would and give you private tuition to tackle with this? What the what! 

He would rather say, "Get off me you sissy, i did the right thing and it can't be better than this if you don't move your butt and do something constructive, I have gotta do other things, what do you think it takes to make people like Bush, Obama,Osama, Marilyn Monroe, Oprah winfrey, Rakhi Sawant!, and of course Sunny Leone... of course not sweet talking to you !!"

Now, people say whatever happens is for the good of the whole world. Dude if its for good then why doesn't this feel good? 

"I fractured both my legs! Yeah it gives me painful sleepless nights and not to forget the bills!! Yes this is awesome and I am really enjoying it! " - Jerk! You were drunk and driving, you should be happy you are alive.

"My girlfriend of 10 years dumped me and has moved on! She fell in love with someone else and is getting married in a week1 Yes this feels really good! " - You were cheating upon her for the past 2 years, duh!

"I flunked!"- You didn't study!

"Got fired, worked so hard, my boss is an ass"- Liar liar, pants on fire.

God doesn't owe any explanation to anyone out here, we come to this world, do our Karma and that is what decides the course of our life. Instead of cribbing about what it could be, we should wonder what it can be? Life is too short to regret, so better forget. Never get drowned in the pool of "If only's" and "It could be",  the disheartening things going on with you, they are all northern stars that point you straight towards your destiny which is the best it can be. No one would get anything before the destined time, or more than destiny... so just smile at your problems and make them feel miserable , of course they happened to you so they are a part of your life... but don't make them part of your daily life, what has passed is just your past. And it isn't your present or future because it did not deserve.